Two months until the wedding and then hiking around Yellowstone
Monday, August 17, 2020
60 days, the wedding tracker says. Today I have 60 days until the wedding, and it seems like as good a time as any to recommit to what I need to be doing. My feet are finally much better. It took a couple of days of mostly resting from walking to make them stop hurting and to make the swelling in my left ankle go down, but now my feet feel mostly fine. I do have a raised red mark that doesn't hurt or itch but that looks like a scar, but isn't, on my ankle again, like I've gotten for years, for no reason I know of. I get those raised red places around my joints and I guess I should tell my doctor next time I see her. I did ask about it years ago but because I don't have any pain associated with it the doctor I talked to then didn't seem concerned. On the other hand it's happened a lot more often around more of my joints since then. I need to start writing stuff down so I'll remember who see the doctor.
I finally got to meet my fiance's youngest daughter, and we got along great. She's a tiny, happy, energetic and observant nine year old who has her dad's charm. I briefly got to meet her mother, who is one of my fiance's two ex-wives. She's remarkably pretty, as is his first ex-wife. They are both thin and they both take care of themselves, and yeah, I'm a little intimidated by how good they look. Looks aren't everything but... Wow are his exes largely a pretty, thin bunch of women. His last gf before me was especially beautiful, not quite five feet tall and not quite 30. I'm older, bigger, taller and less physically impressive than every one of his exes and although I'm not obsessed with it or anything sometimes I can't ignore the facts. It's not even that I'm insecure as to why my fiance likes as well as loves me, because I'm not. But who wants to be in a line-up of lovely women and to be the least physically impressive? Not me.
I'm going to have another busy week but I'm determined to be better about logging my food and getting the exercise I need this week. If I have to wake up a little earlier to do it, that shouldn't be a problem. I've already come so far after the surgery I had two months ago, and if I could get myself to where I am now, I can keep going. I'm looking forward to walking by the river even after I go on my honeymoon. Walking is almost meditative for me, when I can do it for long stretches of time, and I look forward to being able to walk for a long time again. Also, I make sure I get enough iron and other essentials when I log my food. That's as important as anything to me, that I get what I need from food.
So now it's time to start the day, start the week, and make the most of the two months until the wedding.