Still Feeling Exhausted
Sunday, August 02, 2020
I've been trying to get some rest and recover this weekend and spent yesterday basically listening to music and scrolling through Facebook and sleeping, but I still feel tired this morning. I pick Fritzy up tonight and I have so much to do but I'm going to need a lot of coffee before I start doing it. I have all of these things that I WANT to do, but then ultimately I must not want to do them because they don't end up getting done. For me it comes down to doing whatever is highest priority at the moment. Whatever isn't that important at the time I don't bother with. I suppose if I opened my document that had my exercise schedule that would get me a little closer to exercising again. And I think if I thought about tracking my food again maybe I'd do better with nutrition even though ultimately I know what kind of an enormous waste of time that can be. Right now I'm just not sure where I stand with my health journey. I know I want to be healthy, but I also know the time commitment it takes to do that and I am not sure how much of a time commitment I can really make right now. It kind of reminds me of that episode of 600 pound Life where the lady gets weight loss surgery and then quits the program because her rap career takes off. Cos when it comes down to it, what is more important, your career or losing weight? Ideally we'll like to have it all. But I've been trying so hard in all aspects of my health for the past few years and seeing no results and feel like it's time to try something else.