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A day of questions and self doubt (sorry for venting)

Saturday, August 01, 2020

Its not been a good day. I woke up and got onto the scale. No change. I measured my waist. Bigger by one inch. I sat down and reviewed my progress and my goals for July. I had wanted to lose 10 pounds, but only lost 2. I increased my activity and closely watched my caloric intake. It doesn't seem to matter what I do. I was only able to do a few minutes on the bike, but am now up to 42 minutes. I was hoping that would make a huge impact. Nope. I still struggle with walking, but I keep trying. I take gabapentin for nerve pain. I think that is the problem. So where do I go from here? How can I achieve more weightloss? I am just destined to be fat? Its been a day of questioning myself and a day of feeling like a failure.

All day I have been trying to set my goals for August, but am feeling so deflated that I just haven't done it. I am thinking increased exercise. I know I shouldn't lower my caloric intake or I will go into starvation mode. When I was younger, that was always my problem. I would get excited to see I lost a few pounds so I would eat fewer and fewer calories in hopes of losing more. Well, obviously that didn't work out for me or I wouldn't be this big now.
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  • KITTYHAWK1949
    2 pounds in a month is about a half a pound a week. We always would like for the weight to come off fast but that just isn't how the body work. Be proud that you lost and that you aren't giving up! Are you maybe needing to eat more calories? Hopefully you are using the food tracker and staying within the range it shows. Smart to not lower calories as that is usually the wrong way to achieve weight loss. Also how are you doing with drinking 8 or more cups of water daily and getting 8 hours of sleep? These are also important goals. This is the place to vent so blog about what you feel. We have all been there. Not sure if you are familiar with ~Indygirl but she has some great articles and blogs about how she has lost over 200 pounds starting at over 400 pounds and was bedridden with many medical issues but you know how long she has been working at losing weight here on SparkPeople---14 years. You can rest but never quit and you will be another success story!
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  • LOLOLOVESLIFE
    I know you don't know me but I'd like to point out some things after reading your blog. It's out of genuine desire to help because I can relate to what you wrote about feeling deflated and stuck. YOU LOST TWO POUNDS! Weight loss isn't a race or a competition so while I 100% understand your frustration, you have progressed this past month! Also, a few minutes to 42 minutes on the bike??? That's HUGE! Don't sell yourself short! Celebrate the little things because they will become the big things one day. Big hugs to you, you can do this! Don't give up!!
    9 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    (((HUGS))) Wishing you luck. Sorry!
    10 days ago
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