A day of questions and self doubt (sorry for venting)
Saturday, August 01, 2020
Its not been a good day. I woke up and got onto the scale. No change. I measured my waist. Bigger by one inch. I sat down and reviewed my progress and my goals for July. I had wanted to lose 10 pounds, but only lost 2. I increased my activity and closely watched my caloric intake. It doesn't seem to matter what I do. I was only able to do a few minutes on the bike, but am now up to 42 minutes. I was hoping that would make a huge impact. Nope. I still struggle with walking, but I keep trying. I take gabapentin for nerve pain. I think that is the problem. So where do I go from here? How can I achieve more weightloss? I am just destined to be fat? Its been a day of questioning myself and a day of feeling like a failure.
All day I have been trying to set my goals for August, but am feeling so deflated that I just haven't done it. I am thinking increased exercise. I know I shouldn't lower my caloric intake or I will go into starvation mode. When I was younger, that was always my problem. I would get excited to see I lost a few pounds so I would eat fewer and fewer calories in hopes of losing more. Well, obviously that didn't work out for me or I wouldn't be this big now.