Saturday, August 01, 2020
Today is a beautiful sunny day and yet I am down. I find myself alone. This feeling comes more often than not. I could read, make necklaces, clean a little but nothing seems to motivate me to do. I am alone too much of the time It is becoming clear that i am always searching for something and i do not know what. I am not happy with work. It is not giving me hope My expenses are climbing. I think I fill up time by going out to shop. I even dont really know what to purchase and put myself down saying that i am spending too much. I am glad i found spark people. I said i will do things slowly and one thing at a time but if I am depressed nothing gets done.