Oh I blew it
Monday, July 06, 2020
. This is me and how I feel and what I did. I have never hurt my parents intentionally or ever told them off until last night. They called at the wrong time and said the wrong thing. My reaction was from hurt and rejection and from the heart the mouth speaks and my heart was Heavy, my words hurtful, and my anger erupted. I couldn’t sleep and keep replaying it over and over. They don’t ever want my son at their property, at their house and in their lives. My son left crying July 4 knowing he was not welcomed and first hand received their rejection. Because of him possibly coming that day is why I was excluded from the days events. I told them I wrote you to explain our life circumstances for you to understand and I had no idea you would use that against him and us. So much discord, distance and deep hurt. I am not use to these feelings and emptiness.