Tuesday, June 09, 2020
Insight from reading the 4 Day Win book.
People like me who had 2 alcoholic parents, have many emotional eating tendencies. I grew up believing I deserved my parents neglect. When my Wild Child overate or refused to exercise, I’d feel like I finally got the comfort that I deserved and that I’d finally triumphed over my parents. Diet strategies often backfired when I came to see the diet rules as too restrictive and I’d feel deprived.
I need to create a flexible plan that doesn’t feel too restrictive so I don’t feel deprived otherwise my journey support system could be seen as another authority figure just like my parents. I might become angry at my journey, just as I was angry at my parents. That would set me up to be angry and violate the journey rules suggested by my support system. Then I would quit.
Wow. This is so true for me.
The why really explained my behavior and the inner thoughts behind it. Why I got angry. Why I felt so restricted and deprived. Why I quit. How I could recognize those thoughts and find a way to continue my journey. And just like Beth said, how I could prevent feeling restricted and deprived.