Day 1 again!
Monday, June 01, 2020
Here we go again! I have the tendency to sabotage myself over and over again. Maybe one day I will learn. I am sure I have a serious addiction to sugar. Since I can't seem to stay away from it. I also know that I refuse to deny myself. I have done that in the past and it just lead to more heartbreak and larger weight fluctuations. I had breast cancer and that changed a lot of things (because back then I was the lowest weight I had ever been as an adult and I almost died and gained a ridiculous amount of weight due to the medications I was on) I know life is short and I want to enjoy it as much as I can. I wish I was born with a veggie tooth instead of a sweet tooth. I have struggled with my weight since I was a teenager (probably since I hit puberty) hopefully my child won't have the same struggle in her life. I need to get myself together so that I can be the best version of me for her. She needs a strong healthy mom. I need to find the balance I had last year before I got pregnant because I was in a good place (not that I am not now... I am just not in the same place I was) need to get a routine again which will hopefully get easier, although it will change when I get back to work and she isn't with me all day.
Fingers and toes crossed! I am worth it. I just need to remember it everyday.