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It’s hard work

Friday, May 22, 2020

The first two weeks of online teaching went OK, at least with only the sorts of failures that other teachers are experiencing. Adapting my teaching to a different medium is strenuous, and my computer feels as if it’s overloaded, or at least the system provided by the school is. It creaks and slows down and occasionally freezes, so it feels as if prep takes twice as long. I frequently work twelve hours in a day and it’s difficult to take a day off. Taking care of a somewhat disabled DH at the same time has not added too much difficulty, but it adds interruptions I didn’t have when working in my office at school.

Things must gradually get into a routine and get easier, but I imagined a relaxed last year before retirement, and at sixty-nine, I think my health is more important than my job. Thoughts of quitting cross my mind but it’s ten weeks of this to put up with, and most other teachers are struggling just as much. I learn some interesting things, and I admire the patience of my students. Still at times I feel I’m experiencing what some people are saying, that the measures to deal with the pandemic have their own risks to health. At least I’m fortunate that I’ve got to an age where whether I quit early or not, it doesn’t make much difference to my finances. I suppose I’ll get through this kicking and complaining as I usually do, but nevertheless get through it.
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    Working from home does have its disadvantages. Having to take care of your husband would make it hard to concentrate sometimes. You're being pulled in several directions, Margaret, and I have to say I admire you so much! You stuck with it and learned how to teach online! You are going to make it through this!

    I do hope you get some downtime as soon as possible, though. I'm sure you're very ready for a long stretch with no work responsibilities. Take care, my dear.
    117 days ago
    Ten weeks to go - you've got this!
    Hang in there!

    121 days ago
    I'm honestly not sure what I would do, Margaret. Part of my would want to "hang in there", while another part would say "enough is enough".

    Your health is the most important thing. I think you will know when it's time to retire.

    Be safe,
    121 days ago
    Just let me say that I wholeheartedly agree with what's been shared by WATERMELLEN.

    Trust yourself. You know what is best for you. emoticon
    122 days ago
    You are doing your very best and the problems you're experiencing at this point sound like "systemic" ones with the platform and nothing to do with "lack of flexibility" on your part.

    I don't like the sound of 12 hour days!! with no days off. On top of providing the care your husband needs . . .

    Fortunately finishing out won't make much difference financially so you really are free to choose.

    Typically when I have trouble making a decision it's because I am not listening to my knowing; not "feeling" my knowing.

    YOU know what YOU need to do. Stay or go. You don't have to be a hero. You don't have to match the pace of younger teachers without disabled spouses. You've demonstrated you can do it . . . and you feel your health is the most important thing.

    122 days ago
    Hold on! You can make it for 10 more weeks. You have got this! emoticon I am just hoping it doesn't continue in the Fall. I teach special education for preschoolers and I just don't see that group as doing very well virtually. My 3 have not even been attending the Zoom sessions.
    122 days ago
    I'm proud of you too - for tackling this enormous challenge with only 10 weeks left to go. For your students sake, I hope you can hang in there but gosh it's too bad those days have gotten so long. I wonder how well I would have fared if I were still working. My much younger replacement was already pretty tech savvy and she'd beefed up the library's electronic offerings.

    Well - I worked with my nose to the grindstone all the way up to my last day at work. Did I have to? I don't know - but I did. And then it ended. And I have never looked back.

    sending you virtual determination hugs.
    122 days ago
    My youngest son and his wife are working from home while trying to home school an 8 year old and a 5 year old. They are grateful for teachers who are at sea with how to computer teach, yet plug along anyway.
    122 days ago
    Sometimes when I am struggling with a situation I just think of it as a prison sentence with a definite end date! Helps to know it's only 10 weeks! Just make sure you are practicing self-care and take time to do things you enjoy! Acknowledge how well you are handling all the changes and revel in all the new knowledge! I'm entering into a 3 week job that is going to be hectic and stressful so will try to follow my own advice!
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    122 days ago
    You’re doing amazingly, well done. Keep up the great work. That light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter and closer...
    122 days ago
    Grit your teeth and keep going! You're doing really well from the sound of it and I'm sure your students will appreciate it in the long run.
    123 days ago
    Didn't I say you'd do well?!! emoticon
    so proud of you for not giving skill learned emoticon

    stay safe and keep well hun emoticon
    123 days ago
    So proud of you not giving up. You are doing great! Sending hugs and prayers for you and your DH.
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    123 days ago
    You would not believe how much I admire all you teachers, young or old, stepping up and learning to teach in a whole new way at the drop of a hat.
    I cannot imagine it!
    My DIL is not quite 50 and she is exhausted from teaching while taking care of and teaching her three little ones, shopping, cooking, cleaning, managing the care of a sick husband.
    123 days ago
    Good luck and hang in there. It is very difficult. (((HUGS))))
    123 days ago
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