The Dark that Came out of Nowhere
Monday, May 11, 2020
I was doing so well and then...wham. Life. A last minute long arduous road trip, made more arduous by pandemic restrictions. Marital tensions that boiled over. Financial stressors that became a crisis. Another friend died of Covid. A moving schedule that changed from the end of June to two weeks away. A family drama and fracture on Mother's Day. Renovation on my home are moving to slowly for the move. Of course it snowed - in May. So much stress all collided in a 72 hour period.
I feel blue. Too blue to get up and go.
I am embarrassed that I am so blue. I feel like the last 3 days have been a soap opera and I need to not be a participant. I need not to be a day-time Emmy award winner and just move on
But I am worn out.
I didn't exercise. I didn't listen to music. I didn't think about it. I just lay on the sofa for part of the day and watched a series about an Eastern European serial killer. It was in Russian; without subtitles.I don't understand Russian.
I didn't over eat - much. Well there was a candy bar. Not a lot of calories, though and I stayed within my limit for the day.