Tuesday March 17th, 2020
Tuesday, March 17, 2020
St Patrick's Day will never be the same as it's my late brother's birthday. Also it's the day I picked up his ashes. So he's back home where I am. I feel his presence around me.
I have to tell you what happened. Our friend Shawn drove me to the funeral home in his car. I got the ashes. Put them in the backseat. So since Dollar General Store was on the way back I asked Shawn to take me there. I got the things they had in stock, toilet paper was not one of them, and paid out. Got to the car and we couldn't unlock it with the remote. So he puts the key in. It triggers the anti theft system. The alarm finally stops. Repeat. So I call my son, who is in Kentucky and ask what to do. He looks it up and we finally get in the car and it's loaded but the system says that we're trying to steal the car. Shawn freaks out. Finally we get the system reset and can leave. Both of us cracked up and said I know you're here Scott. We heard laughing. He was there, probably pissed he was in the backseat, lol.
Anyway the funeral homes here don't give you the death certificate. I have to go to the Health Department and go to Vital Records for hopefully original. I need 6 at $15 a pop. Hopefully that will be enough because I have to send in original to every place I called. At my house, the funeral home takes care of that for you. So tomorrow Shawn is taking me to get them.
The soup I made,hamburger vegetable soup was good. Shawn and Rhonda came over since we have been together for the last 3 weeks. I don't know what I would do without them. I may get Shawn to stop by the grocery store so I can get a few more things.
I've laughed, I've cried so many times. I've heard so many great memories of my brother from his friends. I've had to break the news to too many friends of his and hear their tears, shock and disbelief.
I have new friends and old friends checking on me. Plus family.
I'm trying not to stress out over all the things I have to do: the phone calls, the forms I'm waiting for, trying to find out forms to get his taxes done, just everything. I'm frustrated and highly emotional, trying to hold it together while I'm finding out what to do next.
On top of that we have the Coronavirus mess. Any other time and place I would not be stressed but this came up all together.
I'm pretty much at peace. I've been through this before, this time is just more complicated and in another state.
I appreciate all your thoughts, sympathy and prayers.
Much love and hugs to you all