I'm Not OK...
Thursday, March 05, 2020
...but I'm trying to be ok with that this week. It has definitely been a "not ok" week. I have been extremely fatigued with no explanation. Nothing has happened out of the ordinary. Sometimes I just wake up and hit a wall. Tuesday, I started going downhill during work, and by the time I got home, I had to go to bed. Woke up the next morning and couldn't get out of bed; extremely fatigued and aching all over. Stayed in bed all day yesterday and called off work. Finally got up yesterday around 5 to have supper. Today, still tired, but I was actually able to get up and come to work. I don't know why this happens sometimes. I was hoping it would get better with the new eating plan, but I guess not. I am trying to keep my chin up and not let it get me too down in the dumps.
I have another appointment tomorrow to get me ready to start my weekly chelation treatments. Also, have a follow up with my oncologist, so will be missing work again.
Last night, I had a dream that I got fired from my job. I love my job and woke up really upset. When I got to work this morning and caught up with all of my missed emails from yesterday, I realized I had overlooked a very important project that I was supposed to do last week! I thought, "Oh great, so this is why I get fired!" Anyway, I cleared away everything else I was working on to focus on getting this done, but it is has several components and involves me getting signatures from every teacher on the campus as well as all of the administrators. It is very time consuming! I emailed my boss to fess up to my mistake, but have not heard back from her. I am sure I will not get fired, but I am very disappointed in myself as I take great pride in being really good at my job, and I really messed this one up.
As far as the diet goes, the scale is stuck. I am following my plan but it is just not moving. I usually don't get stuck this early in the game, so I don't know what's going on. I did try a kettlebell workout with Itty Bitty, but did not get very far. Between the fatigue I was already feeling and me probably being the weakest I have ever been in my life due to illness, it did not go well. I will need to start with something a little more gentle and work back up to kettlebells. I will say that Ittly Bitty (now 15) was very impressed that I used to do this workout in my 40s. She couldn't even get through the entire video!
I guess that is all for now. Please pray for me that this fatigue will not last too long and I will be able to get back to my life.