Monday, March 02, 2020
Has anybody ever had that rage, that frustration? The kind of Rage that you get while thinking about being so fat, so lazy, so... Not who you want to be? When I think about how far I have to go, it makes me feel like I want to punch something. This rage and frustration is the same kind that gives you motivation to lose weight, but the problem is that is also a hollow energy. It gives you motivation to plan, to dream of the future, but the same energy also makes you tired as soon as you actually do something. It is like a hollow cup. You can climb up to the edge but as soon as you start moving forward all there is is down. Some people do it for years, and every time they think it, it adds a very thin layer, so they can move a little bit forward and eventually it would even be enough to do what they need done. But most of us it just restarts every time. My question is: what is a factor that actually goes from this rage and frustration, lack of energy, to something that makes you actually do it? I have always had this question, and I think that one day I may find the solution, the answer, but for now I'll just settle for being able to actually do stuff to lose weight.