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What is stopping me from reaching my dreams?

Monday, February 17, 2020

I saw this picture and I had a deep thought. When I was a child, I would get up on my toes, and dance. I was not pretending, I was a ballerina in my mind, and in my heart. I believed it and did not question it. Today, my dream is to be so much more comfortable in my own skin, by loosing weight. In my head I can't believe that is ever who I will be. Too many attempted diets that have failed. Why can't I believe in myself now as an adult and be who I want to be?

If I woke up tomorrow and magically, I was even 50 pounds smaller. How would my day play out? Would I change my life to keep it off or would I find when offered the ice cream, I would have the will power to say, No thank you? And if I would be strong and fight to keep it off, because I would not want that weight to ever come back again, then why can't I be strong enough today, to fight for that day that I wake up 50 pounds lighter now!

I know these are random thoughts at 1:15 a.m., but maybe they hold an important message for myself. If I am so sure I would work hard to keep the 50 pounds off then. Why not start now. I should fight for my dreams. First I know that I have to be like that child, live my life like I am going to be 50 pounds lighter, to be 50 pounds lighter. I must have faith, and believe it with all my heart, mind and soul. Because I am the reason I haven't reached my dreams.
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  • SPICY23
    Glad I found this now. This is a powerful post. Come back to it often.

    Peace and Care
    205 days ago
    Change is difficult and easier said than done. With current events unfolding especially with covid-19, the more reason to work on one's health and build a strong immune system. We're worth the time and effort. Best wishes.
    305 days ago
    Karen, yes you can do this. You can lose that 50 pounds, one pound at a time and they will all go...
    325 days ago
    You can do this...have lots of hope in yourself, believe in yourself, because I do!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    344 days ago
    True pondering, Karen.
    What you say is so true.
    Can we reattain our childhood faith and innocence?
    Do we as adults get overcome with “reality” and “reason”?
    Continue to work on this. I will too.
    I believe that we can achieve a happy medium and find much joy along our way.
    369 days ago
    I believe in you, Karen. I think you are an incredible woman and I am often inspired by you. 2020 is our year. Let's both get rid of 50 lbs. We can do it!
    375 days ago
    Changing from who we were to who we want to be takes a lot of hard work. I’ve been reading, copying and journaling Beth’s older journals for 4 months. I write my thoughts and feelings and try to remember what was happening the first time I felt that way. The roots to those feelings of failure are really deep. I just keep re-reading, re-writing over and over until the words reach deep inside.

    I was able to realize that my first “diet” attempt of eating 900 calories a day when I was 13 was my first Failure feeling. Then I realized that it really wasn’t my fault. That diet never had a chance but it was the only thing I knew back then. Slowly I released the feeling of failure.

    Working on the blog about perfectionism set me free.

    You can make the changes you want. Indygirl can help you do it.
    375 days ago
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    376 days ago
    Thank you for the insight. I've been struggling with this myself.
    376 days ago
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