It's What I do NOW that matters
Sunday, February 16, 2020
I'm in one of THOSE moods. Having a little pity party in my head after a few weeks of "la casa de never-ending viruses" playing caregiver and sicky and now playing school marm to get my kids caught up in their schoolwork when I still am not 100% healthy yet. My brain still goes there...I deserve a warm chocolate brownie!!
Today I did a substitute to help because the song of "must have warm chocolate" would not stop playing in my head. I made quick oatmeal with some smashed over-ripe banana, a little applesauce, some vanilla soy coffee creamer (I know-chemicals and sugar) and sugar-free dark chocolate chips. Mission accomplished. Delish and mostly guilt free.
I also coped by exercising a lot today. Now here I am coping by eating cauliflower and spinach soup as I emote on this blog. I remind meself as I sit here feeling blah and so over everything and stressed, that what i do now MATTERS. These are the days or moments than can throw me off the wagon. Every good choice I make despite my impulses begging me to eat.all.the.junk....is a win. I need to turn around my mood too and write in my gratitude journal. I can join my pity party, but then I must move forward. This moment matters and I will chose health.