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It's What I do NOW that matters

Sunday, February 16, 2020

I'm in one of THOSE moods. Having a little pity party in my head after a few weeks of "la casa de never-ending viruses" playing caregiver and sicky and now playing school marm to get my kids caught up in their schoolwork when I still am not 100% healthy yet. My brain still goes there...I deserve a warm chocolate brownie!!

Today I did a substitute to help because the song of "must have warm chocolate" would not stop playing in my head. I made quick oatmeal with some smashed over-ripe banana, a little applesauce, some vanilla soy coffee creamer (I know-chemicals and sugar) and sugar-free dark chocolate chips. Mission accomplished. Delish and mostly guilt free.

I also coped by exercising a lot today. Now here I am coping by eating cauliflower and spinach soup as I emote on this blog. I remind meself as I sit here feeling blah and so over everything and stressed, that what i do now MATTERS. These are the days or moments than can throw me off the wagon. Every good choice I make despite my impulses begging me to eat.all.the.junk....is a win. I need to turn around my mood too and write in my gratitude journal. I can join my pity party, but then I must move forward. This moment matters and I will chose health.
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    i think it sounds like a creative mix of tempting ingredients ... and nice and healthy! hope everyone is feeling better soon!
    41 days ago
    It is so hard to get through those moments unscathed, isn't it? You feel like you've been on duty forever despite not feeling 100% yourself, and after all the stress and self-sacrifice, you need a reward in the form of something that will take you outside reality for a while. I had such a day the day before yesterday, and I'm sorry to say I succumbed and ended up feeling physically terrible after many days of feeling well. I was trying to distract myself from some emotional pain by creating some physical pain. There are all kinds of danger zones, but what you say here is so useful and true--that what we do at this moment matters. If we can just get past the few bad moments, usually the danger passes naturally. One of your commenters calls this "quiet heroism," and I don't think that's exaggeration. Our lives depend on our choices at vulnerable moments.

    Hope things have calmed down since never-ending virus crisis!
    42 days ago
    Yeah ying and yang like to visit.
    43 days ago
  • SPICY23
    Taming the beast, even by tricking it with the flavor it craves is still a win. emoticon Yes the choices matter, especially if they derail your program. Sounds like you are aware and vigilant despite feeling icky and a bit below 100%. Hold tight to your resolve and let your body finish beating the viruses. The sick season will pass. Spring is just around the corner. emoticon

    Peace and Care
    43 days ago
    Feel better soon... emoticon
    43 days ago
    Oh, gosh, a great blog! This is quiet heroism in my book. Hope you can squeeze in a tiny bit of extra rest today....
    43 days ago
    I'm spending this whole weekend in bed.... hopefully Tues. will see me back among the living. LOL!
    43 days ago
    It's always about the choices we make. Your coping choices are a huge win for you. Hope you feel better soon and that the kids are over the ickies. emoticon emoticon
    43 days ago
  • PHOENIX1949
    44 days ago
    Great Job!!! And your oatmeal sounds very good.
    44 days ago
    i love that it's what i do know that matters. Hope you are all well soon Hugs Good blog
    44 days ago
    Awwwww, yes, I hope your cassa de la big germ invasion is cleared out now. And I am glad you found that substitute to quit the son in your head. Kudos and good going.

    HUGS and wishing you a germ-free week.

    44 days ago
    Loveyour blog. I hope you feel better soon. You should be very proud of yourself that you made a healthy food choice.
    44 days ago
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