Still Learning, Always Learning
Monday, February 10, 2020
I wish I could confidently say I've finally got it all figured out -- this whole life thing, health, career, relationships. But, no. That would be false, a case of smoke and mirrors being set up and reflected all around. The reality bounces haphazardly.
However, what I can say is that I'm still learning and I'll always be learning. I am a scientist, an observer. I try new things and I observe how they make me feel.
For example, the other night I went with two "mom friends" to a live concert. I originally didn't want to go. I was dreading it. Then I decided I'd drink a bit to get in the mood. When the music started it was so fun. I haven't danced so much I've sweated since my 20's. I enjoyed the music and being around others doing the same thing. Now, the 4 drinks I had, made my body feel horrible the next day. Even though I slept an okay amount, my body was working overtime to get rid of the toxins. It's just a fact, not a judgment. I don't have it all together. I don't always make the "right" choice. But I do have the responsibility and opportunity to be an honest observer. Oh, Patron shots are fun in the moment, but anything over two drinks and I feel like crap all the next day. It's simply a fact. That's all.
And it's okay that I'm still learning and that I'll always be learning.
I watched a documentary about strong vegan athletes Saturday. It was eye opening. It blew apart some stereotypes I had in my head about protein and energy. It also convicted me deeply about how animals are treated in factory farming. I couldn't ignore it. I had to observe. So I'm going to try out plant-based nutrition for a month and just observe. Try and observe. Not perfection, not success and failure, just try and observe.
I'm relearning some things I forgot and I'm realizing new ones.
1. I love to dance!
2. I love to try new things with friends.
3. I like to be around people who are having fun.
4. More than 2 drinks makes me feel like crap the next day.
5. Plants give us all the protein we need and their are so many options.
6. Life is one big experiment to play around with.
7. I am bold and will go after a job I actually want.
I will keep trying. I am still learning and always learning.