Day 220 - Can't Complain About The Week
Friday, February 07, 2020
The last 7 days have been pretty darn good. My mental state seems to have found a balance and I'm no longer in a downward spiral. It feels pretty good knowing I didn't get sucked down into the darkness. I have no idea why, except that I used every tool I have available to help prevent it...and it seems to have worked. For now. I'm hopeful.
Weight wise the week was really great. I cut out the wine, straightened up with healthier food, cut portions a little, and went to the gym Mon-Friday. I lost 3.6lbs!! I know that some of that weight was definitely water retention. But it made me so happy, I couldn't care less. Weight loss is weight loss, even if it's water! lol
I hope to get through this weekend without over-indulging in any food or wine. I really have to stop drinking the wine anyways as my kidney function has declined again. I'm a hair away from stage 4 (kidney disease) and losing function too quickly for comfort. I use the wine to calm the tornado of negative thoughts in my head. I need to find another tool besides the wine, I know. I think I'm still in denial that my future is going to include dialysis. I see my nephrologist on Monday, let's see what he says about.
I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!