My name is Lisa, and I'm a diet FLOOZIE
Tuesday, January 28, 2020
I am trying really hard to be the child of God that He wants me to be. So this year, instead of dieting on the 1st of January, I decided to commit my life to putting God first in my eating choices. I declared that I would eat foods created by God for my body. I would eat clean. Lot's of fruits and veggies. No processed stuff. No pasta. No white bread. Only eat sugar that comes naturally in foods like fruit.No soda--regular or diet. And before I did anything in the day, I would drink a glass of water (before coffee) and spend 2 minutes asking God to guide me for the day. The first two weeks were great and I lost 12 pounds right away. You know there's a "but" coming, right?
1) My husband and 2 boys don't want to try the new veggies (brussel sprouts, kale, spinach, spaghetti squash) and really want meat, potatoes and bread with their meals. Their veggies consists of green beans and corn.
2) I can't afford to buy one thing for me to eat and another set of stuff for them. I find myself focusing on what I am going to eat and leaving them to fend for themselves. In order to "help" them with that, I have TV dinners, frozen pizza, ramen noodles, mac and cheese... This makes it feel like I am DIETING and that really is not what I want to do and I'm also enabling them to eat processed crap.
So I log my food into Sparkpeople and the food thingee says I am not eating enough carbs and that carbs are good for me.
That statement plays through my head when there is a big pot of spaghetti and I decide that carbs are okay. Then proceed to eat WAAAAYY too much because I haven't had carbs in like 2 or 3 weeks. My body rebels, my stomach is bloated. The food tracker says I can still eat 500 calories in my day and I automatically think about something sugary and processed. That
Little Debbie cake tasted SO GOOOOOD!
On the first eating plan, I am to avoid sugar and processed foods. period. On Sparkpeople, its more like "eat things in moderation and stay in your calorie range."
I am a diet floozie because I pick what kind of 'diet' I want to eat based on the foods that are available. I love fresh fruits and veggies (even the weird ones), I love Rotiserrie Chicken and other meats. If I am doing Keto, I avoid the fruit, right? If Im doing the Healthy Life academy I am only eating fruits, veggies and meat (and potatoes are ok sometimes). If I am doing weight watchers, I get points to spend any way I want. If I am doing Spark people, it is alot like weight watchers but we count calories instead of points.
What is happening is that I am eating EVERYTHING. Fruits, veggies, pasta, fats, meats....
I'm sorry this is going on and on but I really needed to hash this out in my mind. I need to pick one and then focus on being the best I can be.
I want to be able to get in and out of the bathtub.
I want to have energy for future grand babies (none on the way, don't get excited)
I want to have the physical ability to perform the job that God is calling me to (not real sure of that either).
Can anyone untangle me?
I refuse to diet.
I want my family to be healthy, too. We are all overweight.