Snow day #4
Friday, January 17, 2020
(throwback to campus the day before the snow hit.)
This is getting ridiculous. Everything is cancelled yet again. No fresh snow to speak of, the campus has been closed nearly all week so plenty of time for ice removal, there's blue sky and temps are going to be well above freezing once the sun gets up, and the roads are fine (I tooled all over own in a freaking Prius yesterday with no issues). Do I get a tuition reimbursement for the week of no classes?!?
Okay, I feel better with THAT out of my system!
The one good thing is that I was able to get in to an earlier doctor's appt yesterday, as well as have a session with a behavioral therapist. My previous diagnosis of anxiety disorder was upgraded to anxiety with panic attacks and secondary PTSD, and she wants to "explore" some OCD and perfectionist tendencies she picked up on. Lovely.
My doctor put me on low-dose betablockers for the anxiety and palpitations. My blood pressure was great yesterday, but she says it's worrying how quickly it rises during a panic/anxiety attack and that she doesn't like how a few palpitations seem to put me into a negative feedback loop that leads to even higher blood pressure and more palpitations. I'll be honest, I really don't want to take them, but I will. Since my blood pressure is usually normal outside of anxiety episodes, I'm a bit worried about feeling light headed or passing out. She wants me to take them for a month then come in to reassess, so I'll give them the trial period.
Well, the sky is blue, temps are predicted to hit the 40s, and I am tired of being stuck indoors. I'm loading up my computer and books to head to a coffee shop near the sea to get some work done, then I am going to walk and walk in the fresh air, gaze out toward the San Juans to the west and maybe catch a snow encrusted Mt. Baker to the east. That's the sort of anxiety treatment I really need!
Happy Friday, Y'all!