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Saturday, January 04, 2020

I want that to be my life and the more I try the worst I look. I have committed myself to a 21 day time of prayer and fasting because I need a healthy mind, healthy thoughts, and healthy thinking. My daughter drains me and my joy as being a care taker takes everything I have to give and nothing for me. Our meeting with every agency I can include, our attorney, and her cmh case manager meet January 13 at 1:30. She has reached the rebellious stage I am told that “normal kids” reach in their teens that all parents go through. She does the opposite of what I tell her and if it continues could be evicted where she lives. She doesn’t qualify for almost every help source until she is 55 and I can’t live 20 more years of this. We can’t afford group homes and she needs to be 55 for adult foster care homes. Currently she is not getting along with anyone and listens and does bad advice. This life is so hard!!!
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    I'm so glad that you have this place for a sounding board. Your life sounds like it has been very stressful. I have a friend with similar dilemmas in her life with her son (albeit her son is not 55! but 21). I bet that you are exasperatingly mentally and emotionally and physically exhausted from your experiences and a system that allows for her to fall through the cracks. I hope that you can find some peace soon and that The Writers Diet Allows for more ways to allow to process and let go of things that you do not have control over.

    Sending you a Spot of Sunshine... I hope it reaches.


    15 days ago
    Some days the only way to cope is to get up and remember this is a new day, don't let yesterday in and keep going :) hugs
    15 days ago
    emoticon I'm so sorry to hear you're being overburdened. I do hope 2020 brings you only good things and/or solutions you can live with and be at peace. All my best. emoticon
    15 days ago
    I hear you! This life is so hard. There is a purpose behind it that we don't always understand or see... until years later (if our creator reveals it). God bless you with the peace of Christ. God send His comforter when you feel discouraged! I don't have a fix for you but maybe thoughts, I've gained, in my own challenging journey will help you bear it easier? emoticon
    I have post-a-note reminders (stuck on my monitor) of things I learned (from different sources) as a careGIVER to elder clients, who wanted to die at home but couldn't live alone. My clients were able to live as quality of life as possible with my assistance. Some lived only 2 weeks, some one month, one lived 3 1/2 years, etc. My time with them was brief and yet seemed l o n g, due to the confining nature of the circumstances.
    I learned some great things from my clients. I recorded: "What can't be CURED must be endured." emoticon "We don't have to like it but we must deal with it." emoticon "There's a lot to think about but nothing to worry about." emoticon
    From my daily devotions I gleaned, "Maturity is when you live your life by your commitments."
    emoticon I was reminded that, "Love endures all things, hopes all things... Love never fails." (I'm certain you are familiar with that scripture.)
    I have to keep reminding myself that, God is in control not me, He knows what he's doing. I will trust you Lord, even when I must cry. And there are the words from the song, "Thank you, Lord, for the trials that come my way.In that way I can grow each day, as I let you lead...." Look it up on Youtube under Dan Burgess (where Cynthia Clawson sings it for him in a studio) , if you're interested in the rest of the song. It gave me great insight and comfort in frustrating times.
    15 days ago
    I don't know if I'd have what it takes to do what is required of you 24/7, but what choice do we have but keep on keeping on? I really hope 2020 brings resources that can lighten your load.
    15 days ago
    You have a lot going on in your life dear and I have had things like this.. but not with teens I took care of my brother for years I almost lost myself but he was a great patient and I miss him everyday. Bless you my Dear😇
    15 days ago
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