I read this goal-setting article today. https://www.sparkpeople.com/re
I couldn't imagine cutting out pics and using a poster board, so I decided to create a virtual one. As I was doing it, I realized the pictures were a very simplistic representation of the reasons I want to get healthier.
For example, I would love to travel more. I want to go to Ireland, Seattle, Boston. But there are so many things tied to my weight and self-esteem that prevent me from doing it. I use money as an excuse-we can't afford it. But as I did the board I understood that to be a lie. The truth is, airplanes are uncomfortable for someone my size - from the seat widths, to whether the seatbelt will buckle, to not being able to use the tray because my belly is in the way, to the (real or imagined) looks on people's faces who hope you are not sitting in their row.
And then, once I get to the place, there is a lot of walking and exploring I want to do. But carrying this extra weight, my hips hurt after walking just a short time. My feet get sore quickly, and even my knees are starting to show the effects of weight. How am I going to enjoy places if I am uncomfortable moving? And it's worse when I think about traveling with my family, who are proper weight, except for my husband, who is also on the journey but already 50 pounds lighter than me. Because they'll want to do things I can't due to my size - Zip Lining, Amusement Park Rides, Scuba Diving/Snorkeling. All the things I want to do, but can't right now.
So, I am glad I did my board. I am going to keep writing about why I chose the images I did, as a way of keeping motivated and also facing my fears and disappointments, getting it out of my body and on to paper.