I have it all, except one thing
Friday, December 13, 2019
I'm truly bless beyond measure. I have it all. Jesus is my Lord and Savior. I have my daughter, step-daughters and grandchildren. I have wonderful church family. I have an roof over my head, clothes on my back and food on my table. Okay, so I don't have much furniture yet, but I have enough.
There is really only one thing lacking in my life. One thing that leaves me feeling empty at time. That one thing is a husband. Someone to love and cherish. Someone to share special moments with throughout life. I get real tired of not having a partner, when everyone else in the family seems to have someone.
When my husband died, I thought I would probably die too. I have heard stories of spouses being so in love and dying only hours or days a part. I thought surely that would happen, but it didn't. Now, here I am six and a half years later, shedding tears because I'm lonely and it's Christmastime and I don't want to live alone.
Yes, I know I have Jesus and God is always with me. The trouble is that I miss the company and closeness of a husband. I don't know that I would be happy with a husband that isn't the one I had before. I don't that any man would be willing to put up with me. I just know that the holidays make it harder to be alone.
Here I am sharing my deepest, darkest secret thoughts with a bunch of strangers on the world wide web. I must be insane.