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Been here before, but its changed. I used to be Lazybutt101

Thursday, December 12, 2019

I used to be here before. Lazybutt101 or lazybutt 001...i was told it didnt suit me. So i changed my screen nolazybutt . I love to crochet, quilt, wtife, love photography, psychology, and art. I used to draw and paint from a photographic memory before a stroke. After the stroke i could no longer grasp or draw details, so i lost my love of drawing and painting hecause of it. But i was told by shrinks that i could recover and learn again if i had enough desire too. But it frustrates me so. Its why i took up quilting as a form of expression of art. I just had to approach it differently;sequentially. One step at a time. I been trying to get my ability back and my confidence by taking some form of painting classes. I learned i didnt forget the basics of holding a paint brush ( lol). and what paint brushes to use. It seemed some mechanical stuff was untouched by my brain. But i lost my ability to see in wholes and find i struggle to relearn what was forgotten .. . I take one step at a time. If i could share my photos...have to figure that out... i will share. Nice to know you all and hope some of my former friends will recognize me and say hello again. Since I been gone so long theres been a lot of changes in my life. I lost my sweetheart. He died in 2015. I think the last time i was on here it was either 2013 or 2014. So im a widow now. Im not happy about that as we were married for 47 years. I knew him longer than my own family, but been surviving. It would be nice to meet new men but i rightly can never marry again because im not quite over my loss. I dont think ill ever get over him. I just cant see myself ever falling in love again.but it would be nice to go out to a dinner or a stroll in the park. Or jyst chat. I dont think meeting nen online is my cup of tea but it would be nice to chat with some men, as long as they arent married or divorced as im very religious about how i approach strangers. Just wishing to have conversation with others mostly Susana
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    I'm sorry for you lost your husband. Mine passed away in June 2013, after 35 years together. His death was the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with in my life. I hope you find some of your old friends.
    490 days ago
  • 8HABIT
    One step at a time and you will get there.
    492 days ago
  • JUDY1676
    emoticon And, I’m glad you changed your name! Much more positive!
    496 days ago
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    496 days ago
  • RHOOK20047
    Welcome back to SparkPeople. We are all here for the same reason, no matter what our personal story is. We are here to help each other to get to that healthy point we want to be in our lives. It is not going to be easy, but it is attainable. Make small goals and they will lead to big successes. You have to make you #1 and tell yourself that you are worth it. If you don't take care of yourself you can't take care of anyone else. You can do it! We are here to help! Welcome back and get active on this site. emoticon
    496 days ago
    I’m so sorry for your loss
    496 days ago
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