Wednesday, December 04, 2019
I cancelled my membership. I didn't care for the way it caused me to feel while dealing with the website. I felt unwanted, unneeded, and kind of like a horse being sold where the buyer wants to check out the horse head to hoof, including the teeth.
I share a lot of things with Spark People, some of it y'all may not want to read. But I feel completely free to pour out my life before your eyes. So here comes some more information about me. I have decided to try online dating. My husband died 6 1/2 years ago. I have not been on one date in all that time. Part of the problem is that I was out of the country for 4 1/2 years. The other part of the problem is that I just do not have a lot of contact with men outside of church. There are two widowers in my church but neither one of them has any interest in me. Since I'm a member of a small church, I will have to find a gentleman elsewhere.
I have thought about this for awhile and decided that I will give it 6 months. If after that time, I still have not dated, then I will resolve to be the fifth wheel whenever I attend a family or social event. When I attend family events I seem to be the only one who doesn't have a date.
I don't know if I would like being married again, but I sure would like a fella for a companion. Someone I mesh with who would be willing to stand in as my date when I have social events, and I would be willing to go with him for the same reasons.