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Monday, December 02, 2019

Tonight I admitted to myself that I’ve let my weight get out of control. I broke my own rule and weighed myself after dinner tonight. I’m back to my all time highest weight. Here’s my rock bottom moment - I can’t zipper up my winter snow jacket. My daily jacket has been feeling a little snug as well.

2018 was a year for improvement and I went on a journey back to health. There have been so many factors in 2019 that are beyond my control. Things that I have been unhappy and downright depressed about. I eat when I’m depressed and stressed out as a coping mechanism. I’m up 21 pounds this year. That only stresses me out more.

This pattern has to end. I deserve to treat myself better than I have been. Starting tomorrow I’m going back to what works for me. I’m doing daily workouts, weigh ins, and tracking.

First step is always the hardest and I’ve now admitted it to myself. 🙈🙉🙊

Time to roll up my sleeves and focus. Let’s roll. 🎲

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