What's the opposite of BEAST MODE?!
Monday, November 18, 2019
For a while I have felt like I was not doing a "good enough job" at this weight loss thing if I wasn't in what some people refer to as beast mode. And for a while I was really good at pushing myself and getting super serious about the nutrition tracking and the workouts. But somewhere along the way I lost sight of the big picture. I became so obsessed with every calorie and carb and felt intense guilt when I know I made a poor choice. I realized it was becoming too much when one day I didn't eat anything for 24 hours. Part of it was because I didn't have much of an appetite but the truth is I also thought if I could restrict it enough, then it would cancel out the bad choice I made the previous day. THAT IS SO UNHEALTHY!!!
This past week I took a break from counting every calorie and I eased up a little on the carbs. I have been doing this long enough I have a good general idea of what it all adds up to and how it makes me feel and what results I'll get. I still did some workouts but I enjoyed a slower pace on the treadmill. This week I took time to heal my thinking!!!
I am all or nothing and that thinking usually doesn't equal success. Sure we can go all beast mode and give it our all but nobody can keep that going. The big picture is we have to find what will work for us. We absolutely can't live our lives with peace if we always think we need to do more or lose more to be happy.
So I know there is a time and place for beast mode and it works for some people. I am finding that for me I like occasional bursts of that super intense and focused effort but mostly I'm just wanting to find a good balance. I don't want to beat myself up if I eat a piece of cake at the church potluck and I don't want to feel so stressed about losing so many pounds by whatever date. I just want to take some time and enjoy this journey. Enjoy my changing body, my growth in mind, body and spirit. I need to continue building a healthier relationship with food, focusing on all the healthy food and preparations I can add. I want to continue rewarding my body with exercise. I want to appreciate the scale as a tool and use it to hold me accountable but never again let that number decide what kind of mood I'll be in. We are so much more than that number!!!
Cheers to moving forward together!!