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Self Sabotage

Monday, November 18, 2019

Ugh. Why do we self sabotage? Why? I've been back at this for 2 months now and have really toed the line for a good 90% of it (hey, no one is perfect!). I'm down 17lbs, but more importantly, have lost a total of almost 12 inches overall in the last 2 months. I am beginning to see and feel the positive changes to my body. Yet, over the last two weekends, I have significantly backslid. I can hold steady during the week, but those weekends hit, man, and it's like all I can think about is burgers, fries, Chinese food, chip dip (my Achilles heel) etc. because, you know, "I'll get back on track on Monday." And also since I've been seeing the progress, I find those sneaky little thoughts like: "Of course you can have that! You've been working so hard! You DESERVE it!" are sneaking back in and wreaking havoc. Bad brain. BAD!

I've never been one to deprive myself of the "treats" now and again because when you do it leads to bingeing, and usually I can be pretty controlled with what goes in my face hole when the tempting foods are around. But, this past weekend I went overboard and now I feel all sorts of guilty - which really isn't good, either. I forgot how much of a mental game this is. I find that fighting my thoughts is so much harder than meal planning for the week or getting out of bed in the morning to exercise. It's like, whenever I see a bit of progress I convince myself that eating the way I once did (which got me to 237lbs) is okay because I'm exercising now and eat well most of the time. Self sabotage. How do I get around that?
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  • KATELJM
    I trained myself (and my DH) to eat foods that we crave and love, that LOVE US BACK. That mindset is a game changer.
    409 days ago
  • CHERALA
    I stopped and started my journey more times than I can remember. When I joined in 2012, I made promises to myself that I still keep to this day.

    Lifestyle, not diet.
    Drink enough water for me.
    Track nutrition and portion control with digital kitchen scale/measuring spoons to stay within calorie range (on average about 1375 calories a day).
    I made lifestyle changes I was willing to live with for the rest of my life which include moving my body daily.
    Moderation, not deprivation.

    It also helped me for a longtime to think of food as fuel - and I needed to make sure I would be able to power myself through the day. I don't consider any food a treat or a reward because it's too easy for me to get in the mindset of eating as entertainment. There are lots of foods that I am satisfied having a half portion of less of. There are other foods I don't eat at all because once I have a taste, I just want more (and nothing ever tastes as good as the first bite!)

    Here's to you figuring out what works best for you as you continue on your journey towards becoming the healthiest you can be!
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    422 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/21/2019 2:41:21 PM
  • SHAKTI816
    The last couple of blogs I wrote are about this very thing. I don't have much advice that is any different than what you have already heard but I will say I completely understand. I know for me it happens because I have that "all or nothing" mentality. I have to find a way to be okay with somewhere in the middle because it's really about balance and consistency.

    Thank you for sharing your struggle. I think it helps to let it out and accept the feedback and encouragement.

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    425 days ago
  • POSITIVEHOPE
    Indygirl has wonderful blogs on self sabotage and motivation . Check out her page and past blogs.

    Yup, the mind can talk us into bad trouble. The journey is HARD work. We get tired of hard work. Now we are susceptible to What can I get away with? thinking.

    Sometimes I want the weight losses to be my reward but they aren’t always enough. We need to continually feed our motivation with positive affirmations, celebrations for every healthy action and find ways to express the pride we have for ourselves, good job.

    Take a moment and count all the healthy choices you make in one day. Water, nutrition, fitness minutes, resisting temptation and forming new neural pathways to create healthy habits. Tell yourself Good Job. You deserve the praise.

    You can do this. This is the step we all need to learn to make it a healthy LIFESTYLE.
    425 days ago
  • no profile photo PAGACONCACA77
    I also go off the wagon but I continue on just like you. You got this!
    425 days ago
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