Back to Battling the Beast
Monday, November 11, 2019
The Bingy Beast is back trying to sweetly entice me to eat all the food and go back to sugar-that evil ex! My body seems to want to bulk up for winter. Sustained stress combined with poor sleep has cortisol wreaking havoc with my hunger cues. Lately, I have a ravenous appetite and it seems to be getting harder, not easier to stop eating several hours before bed.
Even worse, this past weekend I decided to be THAT mom, the one who offers her kids' guests cookies. I know it wasn't a good idea, but my crazy brain thinks I am suddenly a natural.Three medium size cookies one day and 2 the next, I can assure you I am not a natural. The texture was oh so divine and I could feel the sugar activating dopamine and trying to seduce me into having more. Sugar truly is a drug for me.
The good news is it did not turn into a binge. My body actually helped me by making me feel lousy from a sugar crash. I also noticed the next morning both times, I was more groggy. I'm not used to sugar and butter anymore and they didn't agree with me. I got back on track. I reminded myself 5 cookies in a weekend is small cookies/potatoes (whatever that saying is ;)) as compared to the damage I could do in say an hour.
So I am back to being mindful. I have to track and make a series of healthy choices each day. The beast is back, but I know how to fight it: sleep, healthy foods, exercise, yada yada, I don't see more weightloss in the near future now that the Beast is so strong, but I will fight to maintain (and get more sleep!)
ETA: Checked my old blogs and this exact date a year ago, I was obsessing about holiday treats constantly. LOL!