2 years of maintenance but struggling
Monday, November 11, 2019
Yesterday was my 2 year maintenance anniversary...I did it! I don't feel as excited as I want to be partly because I'm struggling. It is a wonder that I've maintained at all this year since there have been SEVEN hospitalizations in our immediate family. Plus my parents move here and my granddaughter's birth. Just today, I'm taking my 23 year old daughter to the doctor because she's recovering from pneumonia. This has been the year of the hospital and other big changes. In the midst of needing to focus on more important things, I haven't let my maintenance habits go to the wayside completely but I feel like I'm not holding on as tightly as I was the first year. I've had to stop being on Sparkpeople so much because of all the other things that were more necessary for me to do. I never stopped tracking my food because I know from experience that really is necessary for me, but I've stopped tracking it as soon as I eat it. Sometimes I have to stop at the end of the day and try to remember what I ate. That's not good for me.
I saw a statistic on spark this week that scared me...when you've maintained for 2 years (like me) you are only 50% likely to regain. Well that's better than a higher number but still scary. That means I'm at the point where I could go either way. I worked really hard to lose weight and keep it off and I'd hate to think that I'd throw that hard work away but I see how it happens...little by little over time, I am losing my focus. I eat too much and I know it. I'm still below my original goal weight of two years ago, but I'm at the top of my current goal weight range and I don't like that.
My writing this blog today is to remind myself to stop and pay attention. Good habits beget good habits and being on spark more is something I need right now because it is an inspiring, supportive community for those trying to lose, maintain or improve health. We understand each other. I'm not failing, but I am struggling and this is the best place for me to regain my footing.