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After Rejection

Friday, November 08, 2019

I am writing this from a place of deep heartache. Maybe, in part, it will bring a hint of peace to my troubled thoughts. Somehow it is easier to share with strangers what I can not share with those closest to me.

I will have been married 16 years next week. We have 3 beautiful children. I am no longer "good enough" for my husband. Over the last 10 years I have slowly gained about 20 pounds. He asked me 5 months ago to work on losing it. I have been trying. I started eating differently and joined the gym but I have struggled to lose it. I did however start to feel better and have more energy. But that is not good enough for him. He has found other "interests" and I'm losing hope that my life will ever go back to what it was. Now I am looking at what I want it to become.

Though I could easily think that if I lose that 20 pounds quickly I'll win him back. But I'm sure it would not have the outcome I desire. I keep reminding myself to focus on "feeling better" not the number on the scale. It's a daily decision I have to make. Am I still discouraged about the weight -- absolutely. But I am determined not to let that take over my life. God has a plan for my life and while He works I will focus on what I can change.
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    Pizza5152, HE should remind her the love he has for her! Sorry, but if a man asks you to lose weight and doesn't or wont support you then let him go!! 16 years is a long time to be with someone, but you don't leave because your spouse won't lose weight! There is something more going on with him. The kids will adjust as you do. Make him leave the house, why deal with someone who doesn't want you for the way you are!?

    Peace and love
    12 days ago
    You have to make sure you make yourself healthy and happy.. The rest is going to come...
    12 days ago
  • PIZZA5152
    Don’t give up and remind him of your love for him. God can change his mind. Those three children will be devastated. Hang in there we will pray for your situation
    12 days ago
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