Embracing life for what it is.
Tuesday, October 29, 2019
Well, another day is upon us, and what are we going to do with it. For you that are still employed by someone other than yourself, many of your hour are set in stone. But for us retired personal, what do we do with all this time. I do continue to stay fairly busy, but I know I could do with some improvements, yes, I do the cleaning, cooking, yard work, feeding our outdoor friends(horses, goats and barn cats) gardening, in season, help mowing the lawn, and the general repair work outside, and helping hubby whenever he needs me, which seems to be often. But really, there still are hours at seem to just drag, and I find myself in front of the TV letting it take up way to much of my time. And it is so senseless, when an hour after a show is over, you have to really think about how it ended. To me that means it was a totally waste of time, but sometime that is exactly what we needed. I don't feel guilty about wasted time, to me, it is just letting the old body step away and recoup. I know when I first retired I got up and got busy and by 10am the house was spotless, everything that needed to be done was done except the meals, and I was face to face with all those hours ahead of me. I needed to learn to slow down or drive myself crazy. I gradually seemed to settle down into a routine, and was able to relax, isn't that what I wanted in retirement. I wanted to be able to not feel guilty if I wanted to just go shopping all day, go have coffee and lunch with friends, go to movies, plan indoor parties. I mean wasn't that what retirement meant, but I found out is short order, that I enjoyed NONE of those things. Shopping, was not my thing, for sure, as I hated it. And coffee and lunch with others, well I found out real fast that they were all still working, and all those years of working I had not developed any real friends, just co-workers, so there was no one to ask out. And then through all the adjustments I discovered that I was quite satisfied with my quite life, and I learned to enjoy just my own company as I had all my life. I remember as a kid in school always being the one playing alone against a wall somewhere, in high school, I was in the nerd group, as I never fit in with the popular kids, and I never did connect with any of them, we had our group of about 6, but after graduation we all went our separate ways, to never keep in contact again. Do I have any interest in the class reunions, No I Don't, didn't need them then so why would I want to see them now. I have lived very well as an introvert, and I except that, and when I get lonely, there is always hubby to entertain me, or go out and hug a horse, or just talk and play with the indoor fur babies. So my life is full, it may not be your idea of a full life, but it is the one I embrace, so for all you retirees out there, make your life yours, not what you thought it should be or dreamed that it would be, but what it actually is.
Well, I didn't expect all of that coming out of my fingers this morning, but it is what it wanted to blog about. I just never know what this old head is thinking. So here's to life, enjoy it. live it, and embrace it. Linda