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week 94 of therapy and other news

Thursday, October 24, 2019

This week in therapy we discussed many things and also getting back into the book by Joyce Meyer called Living beyond Your Feelings. In other news I had to part ways with my sponsor. So right now I am in search of another one. I am also gaining weight daily. I am almost 450 lbs now. Which really scares me and worries me at the same time. My body can't handle this much weight. I could die at this weight. Someone a while ago who wasn't kind at all on this site basically ripped my heart with his comments on my pics. He basically tore me to shreds. It is not said if you have nothing nice to say don't say anything at all! Well he never took that advice at all. His words came back to haunt me recently and I ended up crying over them. He did serious damage to me now. I feel like I am on the losing end right now.
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  • MARILYNS481
    Oh Jen I am so sorry what has happened to you. Words hurt - have been there and know how difficult it is to push through unkind words. Hope you can find another sponsor soon. I believe in you, and my heart aches for how you must be hurting. I think you have a good food plan but I understand that it is difficult to make changes - boy I have been working on this for over 40 years - and rather than losing my weight just went up. So I get it - I know I a concerned about my weight as my body can't take much more - and I understand your saying you are concerned about yours too. We need to take it one day at a time - just today eat healthy - don't look back at past mistakes and don't look at tomorrow as I know for me it gets depressing thinking of all that I have to lose - but just take today and do what you can today to be healthy - move a little more - eat as healthy as you can today. I am learning to take it one meal at a time asking myself 'what I see on my plate, it is going to help me with my health or is it hindering my health' and I must say there have been times in the last week that I looked at one of the meals in a day and decided that I need to make a change to that meal as I saw things that weren't going to help me = yes they were foods that I like, that I turned to for comfort, but they weren't going to help me in the long run. I don't know if that will help but it is just a suggestion.

    Know I am praying for you - you can turn it around one day at a time
    16 days ago
  • ASOBFALLS
    emoticon emoticon emoticon

    ONE DAY AT A TIME
    19 days ago
  • DJBTOO
    Actually when people make rude/crude remarks it's more about them than who they are directing it to...it shows their insufficiencies and lack in so many areas. But it can hurt and haunt us when directed to us - if we let it. Reading Joyce Meyers - listening to her videos - can help a lot in this area. I wish you the best in finding a new sponsor. Keep doing what is best for YOU ... and remember he is "one" person here ... think of ALL the others WHO ARE IN YOUR CORNER!!! Including me! He's outnumbered!!!!!!!! emoticon
    19 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    I wish you much luck finding a new sponsor and hope that you can forget about those mean spirited comments and realize you are WORTH the effort to take care of yourself. Taht was just cruel that someone said that.

    hugs and prayers.
    20 days ago
  • SABLENESS
    People who have not walked in your shoes can range from empathetic to totally clueless. I hope you reported him; that kind of comment is not in keeping with the spirit of this site. You've probably run across INDYGIRL on SP. Now there is someone who really has been in your shoes and would understand completely. Love yourself as God loves you. HUGS
    20 days ago
  • DRAGONPRYF
    People can be so ugly. I'm sorry that happened to you. Don't let one person ruin your participation on this site. It's one day at a time, one step at a time. Aim for so many steps and add a few more everyday. Choose a smaller plate and trick your mind into believing your eating the same thing. ( I'm doing this one) Take your time. Its not a race. If your can't walk, do some arm exercises. Any little exercise counts. Please don't beat yourself up. (I'm trying this too) Good luck finding a new sponsor. I have hear this can be hard.
    20 days ago
  • SHMOOKITTY
    I'm glad you parted ways with your sponsor. She was trying to restrict you way too much. Hopefully you can find someone better to help you on your journey! emoticon emoticon
    20 days ago
  • KESTRYLL
    I am sorry for what he said to you, we are here to help. Love you, my friend
    20 days ago
  • VHAYES04
    People can be so unkind. We are all here because we have a common goal; get healthier and loose weight. I know it’s hard but try to not let people saying hurt you. I’m here if you’d like to talk. Hang in there. You’re doing this for you.
    20 days ago
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