A 'very hungry caterpillar' kind of day.
Wednesday, October 23, 2019
So, today was a munchy day. A 'very hungry caterpillar' kind of day.
Perhaps because it was an unexpected work-from-home day (automotive drama), and I hadn't planned for that. The foods that normally satisfy me just weren't doing the trick. And away from work - I didn't have my 6 flights of stairs handy for exercise snacking.
Early on - I had the 1982 Bow Wow Wow cover of "I Want Candy" on short-loop mental replay, except the lyrics morphed to "I want junk food." I think what I was really craving was salty crunchy. I tried an apple. And then some crackers and cream cheese. And a little while later, another apple.
And for lunch I had a salad (LOTS of crunchy - not so salty).
And another apple.
And around 2:30, I decided to let myself have a serving of tortilla chips. I counted out the chips, and did my best to savor each one. About three quarters of way through, I had the fleeting realization that I had rather had enough - and the flavor and texture of the chips just really wasn't that interesting/ desirable/ exciting. But I let that though go and finished the last 4 chips. Completely irrational, but the driving thought was "This is my TREAT. I am NOT going to NOT eat it!"
Writing it out - that thought is down right absurd. It made perfect sense at the time, however.
And an hour later I was distractedly nibblish. Again.
Went outside with the dog; threw the ball around. Had a glass of water.
Still nibblish. So I tried fat/sweet: half a ONE protein bar (I'm in love with these bars - in half or third portions, they have been great life-saving binge-avoiding treats); two Brach's pumpkins. The One bar was delicious; the pumpkins sickly sweet. But not it.
Did my best to immerse myself in work, until I had to run errands - and be out of reach of food - until dinner. Dinner was very light, and, Surprise! I was not particularly hungry - after having grazed through the afternoon.
When I went to finish logging the day's food I was pleasantly surprised to see I was still within my calorie range - that I had actually done a decent job of 'micro-grazing' (somewhat mindfully)- in my search for - satiety/ fulfillment/ satisfaction. I'm sure there are more pearls and lessons I can pull from this experience - but the glaring one at the moment: What ever it was I was searching for - food wasn't it.
An interesting day.