LADYVIXON
250-499 SparkPoints 317
SparkPoints
 

A sad reality that is hard to admit

Tuesday, October 22, 2019

I fell into the statistics that I prided myself on beating. After 7 years of weight maintenance (with ease) i regained a large amount of weight back. In just 2 short years I gained over 100lbs. I went thru some trauma 2 years ago and developed binge eating disorder. I stepped on the scale today and was heart broken and upset that I saw a over 300 all these things we’re running thru my head. I felt like a let down to my clients, to myself, to everyone. I was on the news for my weight loss. I spent thousands on excess skin removal surgeries. The list could go on. This isn’t about pitty because I still have that fire in me I know this isn’t the life I’m supposed to be living. SparkPeople was a huge tool in my weight loss journey the first time so I’m here for accountability and support. Let me be an example of what happens when you stop caring about yourself.
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
  • DAJODU
    It's okay! We are all human. We all stumble and we all need help sometimes. You KNOW you can do this already! And you can use your past experience and knowledge to help guide you and make it an even smoother transition back into a healthier lifestyle!!

    You have the power and the will to change! There is nothing that can stop you if you don't let it!
    317 days ago
  • CURVACEOUS10
    You were such an inspiration to me for so many years. It's ok, forgive yourself, you did it before you can do it again! Thank you for being honest, the first step is just admitting it. We're here for support!
    331 days ago
  • no profile photo CD14322774
    I've done the same cycle ... lose some weight ... gain it back ... lose more ... gain even more back ... etc. Each time I swear it's the last and then I step on the scale and find myself right back to where I started and can't believe I let it happen yet again. Medical and psychological reasons make it so much harder, but you can definitely do this (and so can I). No one that matters in your life will be judging you on gaining weight and the best thing you can do is to let that thought go! You haven't let anyone down ... I actually look at it the other way around - if I was one of your client's I would want to see you succeed and being able to actually see your progress just shows that you know what you're doing! Best of luck to you ... and you WILL do this!!!
    409 days ago
  • BECCACOZZIE
    I've been there, and the courage it takes to take stock and begin from where you are is a big deal. I hope you honor the strength that takes.

    And of course you can do it again! And you will. emoticon
    409 days ago
  • BARKER_77D
    Take the journey again for yourself. Dont worry about everyone else. The people,who care...will not judge. Take one day at a time snd dont be too hard on yourself. We are all rooting for you.
    409 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment


    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.
 

More Blogs by LADYVIXON