So...like 2 1/2 years ago I was on here regularly, tracking food, tracking workouts, tracking all of the crap going on in my life. The relationship I was in was very emotionally and verbally abusive and I spiraled out of control. Thankfully, I've been out of that relationship for almost two years now and have been with my current love for the past 16 months. And she. Is. Amazing.
So a little update on the personal side of things, I still haven't started hormones or even talked to anyone about top surgery. I was on track going to an endocrinologist that was helping me get my diabetes under control so I could start hormone replacement therapy, but then my insurance kicked back and said, "Nope, we won't cover an out of state specialist" even though he's literally 20 miles away. So I got hit with a $900 medical bill and really nothing to show for it other than the promise (that was now 1,000,000 miles away) that we'd get me on HRT.
So it's been an up and down adventure for a while now, but I've found that the two major cities in Kansas both have transgender health clinics so I will be going to one in the not-too-distant future to get on track and get things started. Hoping maybe I can find an insurance on the marketplace that will allow me to see out of state doctors and still be covered. I live in the corner of the state - 2 miles from OK and about 17 from MO. Of course, the closest city is in MO - which isn't covered under Blue Cross of Kansas. So when they release marketplace options for insurance, I'm going to see what it'd cost me to be covered in Missouri. Because there are a LOT of things that I need to get done.
So early this year I went on a smart points Weight Watcher's plan with a good friend from Canada. I dropped about 15 pounds in a matter of two or three weeks, felt great, exercising, eating better, the whole thing. But, as it's always been, we both kind of gave up because we slipped once or twice and thought, "What's the point?" My girl moved here in May and she puts butter and sugar in quite literally everything and is also the main cook of the house. I've reiterated to her 100 times if I've done it once that I can't eat all that crap. (I mean, I CAN...but...no....) and I've finally gotten it through to her that we have to change how we eat. She has acid reflux 95% of the time, asthma, blah blah blah. And I keep telling her - do this with me - cut back on stuff and you'll lose weight and feel better. So she's finally on board. Of course, she'll still make sweet stuff, cheesy stuff and all of that - but she's learning how to substitute and moderate things instead of eating her feelings.
On the diabetes front, I've gone back on Novalin-N insulin, which I don't have a script for, but I can get at Wal-Mart without one for $24.88/vial, which lasts me about 10 days. So until I get insurance that will be useful and all of that, that's what I"m doing. It keeps my numbers still above the range, but I'll take 160 over 320 any day of the week. My focus right now is on losing weight and that will help the diabetes problem along as well.
Anyway - it's good to be back. I'll be keeping this blog up to date, posting pictures, blah blah blah. Hope you're all well.