Saturday, October 12, 2019
I am a loser and I feel so alone, maybe that's because I am alone, no friends in this town or anywhere in this state I've moved to. But I'm a loser...I'm losing weight and my goal is only for myself though I think if I lose weight maybe I can attract boyfriend, or at my age is it just called a man-friend and have a friend. But I feel it's to late for me. No I'm not depressed I'm bored to death. I feel like I'm not living, just existing and ever so slowly losing.
I eat very little, gave up on cooking, there's no point for 1, I just want to grab something when I start to feel not so good or actually hungry.
I turned 59 several weeks back and was ok with it, I thought I was that age already so I'll just day with it till next year. Thinking about next year.... it would be nice if I was planning a wedding, my own hahaha, never had a wedding never had a husband or what I would call one of those.
I'm afraid. Maybe I just want to much or maybe it's just too late and my little dog and kitty will be the only loves of my life.
Things could be worse, I could be lonely and not losing!
I guess I will check back in and see if there is any other lonley losers out there.