I like most Sparkers blog for … ME. To get my thoughts out in front of me and journal my way to healthy while sharing my life with others.
BUT … to be honest … I like the feedback.
The feedback provides support, encouragement, validates and at times … provokes insightful self-questions and offers answers.
This past week I have been looking for Nemo … I mean my true hunger signs.
Sunday's blog asked others to share their hunger signs. I got 4 answers out of the 11 who commented on my blog.
I also asked what would you eat if you ate your favorite food. NO one responded.
So … today … the day before my 43rd wedding anniversary … I ponder.
Do we find these questions too … messy to answer??? Have we overridden our physical messages while trying to find the PERFECT diet to get to that PERFECT weight???
In the book Intuitive Eating page 2 … Feeling like you don’t deserve to eat, because you’re overweight … leapt off the page and it has been echoing in my “fat” brain ever since.
I shared with OneKidsMom … I don’t feel like I am better than anyone … I just know that I am not LESS than anyone.
Now my self-worth … well, that’s another question entirely.
Somehow, I KNEW that I deserved hubby … he treated me with respect, dignity and tenderness. This was very, very foreign to me coming from a dysfunctional, physical and mentally abusive, neglectful childhood household.
I KNEW we would conquer the world and share our love and life together.
I KNEW it. And we have … for 43 years and counting.
I don’t KNOW what my body is telling me coz I have not learned to listen to it. I have not trusted it … like I trust my dear hubby.
A fatherless girl thinks all things are possible and nothing is safe. ~Mary Gordon