Today one of the questions I was asked was 'What does it look like to be perfectly content? Had to think about this and even went to the dictionary to look up 'content'. What I came away with was 'What does it look like to be happy / pleased with something?' So this got me to thinking can we happy or pleased while being unhealthy, while we are overweight or morbidly obese?
I see where in most situations I have been 'happy' or 'pleased' with where I was/am in life. I married a wonderful man, have great children, 8 of the best grandchildren ever and the most adorable great granddaughter who will with in the next week or so become a big sister to a little girl. I am please / content with my extended family - though there is some disfunction in the family (as I think there is in many families) - there was an abundance of love and still is. I am content with the family I married into - again lots of love there too.
But there is one area that I have not been content / pleased / happy with for many years - and that is my weight. Though I was a health child and was at a healthy weight till I got into my 20's I never thought to much of my weight. I remember thinking that I would have like smaller hips though (I wore between a size 10 - 12 and remember thinking I was somewhat overweight - strange I know) but never thought about changing up the food or moving more. I knew I was loved by my family and I knew I was loved by my Lord and Savior - so life just went on.
Each year I would put on a little more weight always thinking that at some time I would just 'lose it' without ever thinking how or why. Then the day came when I was told I had cancer - and that the weight was not helping the situation. I survived the operation and went back to the way I was living. I felt content - I was alive. Then cancer returned - I dealt with it and life continued and my weight continued to go up. Then other ailments came along the big one being Type 2 Diabetes - told that this could have been prevented if I had heeded the advice to take control of my weight and move more. So medicine was prescribed. Then a few years ago trouble with my legs that was brought on due to diabetes. And finally was told that my kidneys are not working as they should - another side effect of diabetes. As I am writing this I have a small nagging pain in the back which I believe is due to my back problems but could be a flair up of my kidneys telling me they are hurting. Yes, I am going to call and report to the doctor just to be sure - just something to stress about I guess.
But can I be content through all of this. Yes. And basically I do feel content - happy with where I am at in my season of life. I am blessed to still be alive as I believe my Lord is still wanting me to accomplish something - so I will continue on with a smile on my face and look forward to the many days ahead of me -
What steps do I need to take to stay content? I need to continue my daily walk with the Lord making sure I start the day off on the right foot so to speak. I will lean on Him for my strength to get through each day. I will rely on Him to direct me in the changes I need to make. How can He do this? He daily reminds me when I am hungry to 'eat for nourishment not for stress / comfort or any other reason' And I must say that these last 9 days have been so much better then in the past - why? - because I have taken the steps to help take my mind off of food all day - I make a menu plan for 7 days, listing the 7 suppers that we will have, I make sure we have all the necessary food for these 7 days in the house - so having done that I don't need to think 'what's for supper? or 'do we have all that we need for supper? = I have planned and done the work in advance.
So now my days are more free - I get to eat food I enjoy - I am having a great time with hubby, my daughter and our friends - I am feeling stronger, I am walking taller, the pain is a little less - I am feeling loved and so blessed.
I will continue on this journey taking it one day at a time, turning my eyes to the Lord, walking the way He directs me, making good choices with respect to food, loving my body as it is knowing that it is a gift from God and that if it is in His plan the extra weight making me in the morbidly obese range will flee my body - I will praise Him and thank Him each day.
9 days of logging onto Sparkpeople
9 days of logging all food and water
26 miles walked to date for my Virtual Walk Across Canada
Bible reading completed to 2 Chronicles chapter 30.
it has been a good day