Never give up.
Monday, September 30, 2019
Never give up. Never give up. I tell you never give up. I am blessed. I have been working hard since July to keep my thoughts good so what comes out of my mouth will be good. That is not an easy goal. I can tell you that it has made my life easier. Some people think that I am just a pushover or a Pollyanna but I think that both of them are ok to be. This does not mean that my life is easy, it just means that I can see the good in everything. In saying that, I want you to know that is not an easy task either. I feel like I have had a lot of struggles lately. I will share a few of my dilemmas. I lost my health insurance August 31. I have had major health problems. I need to have some major testing done but without insurance, I have to rethink this. A CT scan, and an exploratory look into my lungs and windpipe. There is also the appointment with a specialist. So how much will all that cost? Well yesterday, at church, my eyeball starts to hemorrhage. It bled till today. The specialist said I was to stay upright and not to do anything. A still day. That makes for seeing out of my one eye pretty difficult. Of course the specialist wants to do an ultrasound on my eye. What? I didn't even know that could happen. How much will that cost? Last night an hour after I was asleep, I woke up sicker than sick. My stomach acids sometimes like to come up into my mouth. Acid burns so bad. After an hour of being violently sick, I finally got to go back to sleep. What a night.
So where's the good in all that? First of all God saw me through it all. My eye did stop bleeding. I can still see out of my eye so my retina probably did not tear. My stomach settled down after an hour, it has lasted 24 hours before. I truly trust that God will lead me down the right road. I continue to read the Bible. Talk about lucky, I have the Bible on my phone so I can listen to it. I'm starting the book of Isiah tomorrow. Life is good. Add into that, I'm still working on losing weight and I have been being successful there too. I am eating my breakfast! Such an important meal. I do not eat after 6:30 pm. I am struggling to get in my 64 ounces of water but I still work at it. So I go back to the beginning words, never give up. LIfe is good.