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Many Changes Ahead

Monday, September 30, 2019

I have been doing some self-assessment lately and I haven't been too happy about the result.

Also, a few weeks ago we found out that my older (65 year old) sister has breast cancer. She and my mom live about 2 hours from me and about 40 minutes from each other, so the logistics of this are already getting tough and her treatments haven't really started yet! Those 2 do not get along at all and I seem to always get put in the middle and then they both end up hating me. It has always been like this, but as we all get older it only gets worse. I try to keep my sanity and not let it get me down but it gets really hard sometimes when my mom calls me in tears and then my sister calls me in tears because they are upset with each other. I can't seem to help either one of them, but they keep dragging me into their spats.

My part-time job with my son is working out great and I am free to take care of family issues as I need to so that's a good thing. Being busy is also a distraction from the stress of dealing with all the negativity and fear.

I have also recommitted myself to getting healthier. I've cut out the snacking, but I have to be careful because I'm pre-diabetic.

I thought about starting Spark all over again - erasing everything that I did, changing my username and everything, but then I thought, no, I need to own this. It's part of the same journey that I started a long time ago. I need to claim the ups and downs - ALL of them.

So far, I am 8 pounds down in a little over a week. That may be too much for a week, but I need to lose A LOT so this seems like a drop in the bucket to me and I don't expect this result over the long haul. I'm just going to keep plugging away at it. I don't have much control about what's going on with the rest of my family, but this is something I CAN take charge of.

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    Welcome back to your active healthy-life-style quest.

    Sorry for your family issues...
    made me think of the saying.
    We choose our friends and inherit our relatives.

    Yes, it is so very hard when people we care about put us in 'no-win' situations.
    My parents and siblings are gone now. but I do remember having to practice
    going with the punches and letting hurtful things roll off my back, like water off a duck.

    Stay strong.

    592 days ago
    So sorry to hear your sisters diagnosis. Hope the family issues settle a bit in light of that, stress isn't going to help her through the treatments. No we do not have control over anyone else but ourselves and good to just admit that and try to let it go. If you erase the stuff from the past, you know it is still there. It's part of the story. You are right, just keep moving forward and you will drop weight.

    592 days ago
    Keep moving forward
    592 days ago
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