Realized something, and frustrated too.
Wednesday, September 11, 2019
Ok, so I have been kind of comparing myself to the "old me" lately. The one who was young and fit and thin despite eating what I thought was a TON of food. But it kind of just hit me this morning, when I was younger I wasn't home all day! I am a mother of 2 children that I homeschool. Any job I have had the past decade has been work from home jobs. And to that end, I can eat any time I well please! I can see it clearly now how that has been a huge contributing factor to my weight problem.
Yeah when I was 19 not only did I have youth on my side but I was at a job where I could only eat at meal times. Then I had to get to bed at a decent time to be up early. And I spent my evenings hanging with friends, exercising, or doing housework. So yeah of course I was thin! Sure my meals were quite large, but I never snacked. I am trying to recall if I snacked at all, but I really didn't. I still lived with my parents at the time and mom did the shopping and she never bought snack foods, ever. So I could eat a huge meal, but then that was it until the next meal. And I didn't eat sweets every day. But for the past ten years I would often eat many sweets every single day.
Being at home all day I have a constant temptation to eat. I do buy snack foods because my husband always wants them and the kids. None of them have weight problems thankfully. But I do, because I spent so many years just eating, eating, eating.
Kind of eye opening to realize this. Maybe I can eat more options at meal times if I just simply don't snack? I dunno. But I do know that at times the all or nothing way of dieting has been difficult.
It has worked yes, I have lost a lot of weight and I love that. But I get depressed because I have to eat so differently than everyone else. But at the same time, if I do eat anything with bread I tend to not lose any weight. So maybe I do have to be strict to lose weight. But low carb sucks.
Ok now I am just whining but I really have been struggling so much lately.
I had a healthy breakfast, but I still feel hungry. I have no idea why. It was full or protein and veggies, even healthy fat, and was 418 calories. I technically should be full! Grr.