Mindset change needed!!!
Tuesday, September 03, 2019
September is here!!! I love this time of year. The weather is cooling off and the crisp air invites change to the trees and I have always felt it invites change to myself as well. Summer is difficult for me as I tend to gain weight from eating too many delicious foods and the heat sometimes makes me lazy.
I have been pretty depressed about my expanding waistline for some time. I have also had a very stressful summer at work and so even though I wanted to do something about my weight, I didn't have the energy or the time.
I stepped on the scale today and found that I am at my highest weight ever. Even higher than both my pregnancies. How did this happen? Earlier this summer I did a 30 day fitness challenge and exercised daily for 30 days with no significant change in weight. I became discouraged and well threw in the towel and said to hell with it. This was the same time that I was putting in overtime and stressed out from work. I stopped working out because I was too tired and I didn't want to take the time. I increased my daily glass of wine to 2 or 3 after work and my evenings consisted of sitting around. I guess I reached a mindset that it didn't matter what I did, weight loss had now become impossible for me.
In the past, when I put my mind to it, I was always successful in losing weight. I would do all the things necessary to make sure that I would lose weight. I have to really look at my behavior and I can say that I haven't really done the work. I have people telling me and so I have been telling myself that as I am older now, weight loss is not only more difficult but impossible. However, I am so depressed and disgusted by the way that I look that I HAVE to fix this. I am stuck in a body that I don't recognize and I don't like it at all.
I decided to start all over with baby steps. It is the only way that I am going to develop consistency. So I promise to track my food and move for at least 10 minutes every day until I find my "spark" that I know that I am capable of. Here goes....