It was great! Sort of!
Monday, September 02, 2019
I’ve just come home from a mini vacation with DH and my daughter, who decided to come with us at the last minute. That was lovely. It was only two days because of his dialysis, but it was worth going.
The first day was great, and the second day was a great experience - hmmm! Yes, I mean it, but I would say very interesting rather than very enjoyable! As someone has said to me, “Taking a break with a disabled hubby is an oxymoron.” I didn’t want it to show that it got wearing the second day because I wanted to put a good face on it in front of my daughter - for myself as well as for her. But anyway, she said, “You need to live your life and take your own vacation.”
So a good thing that’s come out of this is, barring a really bad situation, I’ve decided to go back to the UK for a short visit early next year for the first time in five years, or to France where my brother lives - I haven’t seen him for even more years. My next holiday needs to be a real break.
Later addition: The trip has taught me to put more effort into being more of a caregiver to myself. Striving to be a good caregiver is partly approval-seeking from him and from myself. I should already have my own approval and that should be enough.
Thank you SERENASEA! I put it back up.