It's been months. I used to yell at my sister for not staying in touch with me. I could tell if she was having a rough time, because she didn't want to have to tell me about it. Guess what I've been doing, the same exact thing. So I called her this morning! And, I'm writing here.
It has been a tough summer for me. I always think that summers are going to be care-free, fun, time at the beach things, and then life gets in the way. I was running a business. People needed time off for family emergencies. I was taking a class that took up as much of my time as I could give to it. I had my own medical issues to contend with as well as those of my family. I blinked, and the summer was over!
So here I am coming up for air. When I take stock of where I am now, much of me says that I've back-slid and lost a lot of ground this summer. If I step on a scale, I'm guessing I would find that to be true, but that isn't how I choose to judge my life.
Life is what happens while we are busy making other plans, remember?
I finished my second class of the year, a classical painting class.
Part of that class was painting a self-portrait. That was challenging. When I could get out of my own head, it was fun. It turned out to be how I see myself. I see such a sense of peace in my face I'm thrilled to have it on the wall.
I took a leap of faith, and tried a medication that would have cured a chronic cough I've had for years. I found out that being on that drug made my life unlivable for someone as busy as I am. I basically lost a month and a half of creativity and energy.
I could go on and on about what I didn't get accomplished this summer. I would do a great job of feeling bad, and that won't get me anywhere. It is time to take stock and figure out where I want to go from here. Life isn't linear. As much as we all want it to be, it isn't. What it is, is a juggling act, and sometimes you drop a ball.