Okay, so, Day 2 didn't go as planned either!! My kids woke up and instantly started bickering with each other, so my peaceful morning had a sledgehammer wake up call. Not a great way to start the morning! I was so exhausted by the time they left that I went and laid down with my pups until almost time to leave for my CT appointment. The appointment took way longer than they said it would, but I got to sit and read and relax in a comfy chair and read my current book (Girl Wash Your Face). Aunt G drove me and wanted to grab something to eat, it was lunch rush hour and we went to a chicken place. As we sat it got more and more filled and very loud. I had an anxiety attack. I managed to hide it pretty well and said that I was getting a migraine and we needed to leave. She took forever to leave. I was beginning to get worse and worse, so by the time we got home, I was exhausted again. I got the pups out and let them get the zoomies out in the back yard then came in and tried to work, but was so drained from the anxiety attack that I went and curled up with the pups again. Had to keep and eye on Hope though, she kept wanting to try to eat my slippers!
Nowhere to go this today, but I'm up at 0300 again! I went ahead and got dressed to work out, and am going to stick to routine and work out after I get the kids off to school. I'll have breakfast after that, I'm just not a breakfast person and eating/drinking it too early will make me tired and sick feeling. I've got quite a few phone calls to make today, as well as some desk work, but am hoping to work on my goals (working out and sewing) as well as start on my new book Eat That Frog, it should get here today, along with the workbook!! I'm so excited! I'm going to listen to Ruth Soukup's next podcast on my phone while I work out and while I clean this morning. I missed a whole day of chores and such, but instead of trying to get it all done in one day, I'm going to go into ToDoist and reschedule it to next week, unless it is something pressing.
I'm the kind of person that when I start working on something I like to see results, and that often leads to frustration on my part, because results take time! It will take time to build a stronger me, to lose the weight, to learn new skills and make these routines into habits. I'm not the most patient person, but a lot of people think I am because I'm usually so quiet. Quiet does not equal patient!! LOL. Which is why I'm starting over. I restarted my Spark Coach Plateau Busting Program today, and I'm finally going to get that work out in today as well. Yes, I'm tired and will probably need a nap at some point today, yay chronic illness. But, I'm doing what I can, when I can, and mornings are usually when I have the most energy. That is not always the case, but I tried waiting till the kids got home so I could work out with them and found that I had even less energy then. So, I'm going to work with what I've got. If the kids leave and I'm exhausted, I'll take a 1 hour nap and see how I'm feeling when I get up, I mean, I did get up super early again this morning. I'm hoping to eventually eliminate naps as I build my stamina back up, but I know it's not going to happen immediatly. I'm a work in progress, and though it is hard for me to admit sometimes, I can't just jump back into working out like I used to, I have to build back up.
But on that same note, I'm not going to let myself get in my way. I'm not going to overdo it, but I'm not going to let myself use excuses either. If I'm just a little tired, maybe walking for 10-15 minutes will wake me up. But on the other hand, if I can barely keep my eyes open and am dizzy, I'm going to lay down. I've to got work with what I've got, and build from there. It is so hard for me to admit that I've gotten to this point with my stamina and strength, I hate have chronic illnesses, but it is my reality, so burying my head in the sand won't do me any good. I've got my plan, I've got my work arounds so that no matter what my energy level is, I'll still be able to get the most important things done, and a workout as well. Yesterday by the time the kids got home I was too exhausted to make sure they worked out and got their routine done. I need to work on that. But my brain fog from having such a bad time with that anxiety attack really wiped me out. Aunt G was great for taking me to my appointment, but she took so long to get out of the place we were eating, I was near panicked by the time we finally got out.
Took a nap after the kids left, I was wiped. Why must they still be so hard to get ready in the morning when they are a teen and pre-teen?! My Teen Is actually the hardest of the two to get ready in the mornings! I'm going to have to start waking her up when I get up she takes so long. I have a slight headache, that I'm hoping will go away, but if little dog keeps barking at everything that goes past the front door, that may not happen. I really want to work out today, but I know better than to do that when I have a possible migraine coming on, it only makes it worse. I'll have to go get an ice pack to put on my head and see if that helps.
I guess if I'm going to get anything done, I'd best get off of here and actually start doing!! Starting with getting some water! I'm supposed to extra hydrate to get all the iodine out of my system from having the CT with contrast done!
Hope you have a great Tuesday and that it is not too hot where you are! It is supposed to cool down to the upper 80's here today! I really don't like the heat!