Day 229: Moving Forward
Saturday, August 17, 2019
"Your visions will become clear only when you can look into your own heart. Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes." (C.G. Jung )
Happy Weekend, my lovely friends!!!
I’m not sure how this is going to go, but let’s do this. Most of you know that my Dad passed away a little over two years ago and things have changed. Right now, I can honestly say that I haven’t adjusted to the changes that well. I’ve thrown myself into doing things around the house and taking care of my Mom that I have completely ignored me and now I’m paying the price for it.
I’ve kept things under control for so long, but these past couple of years I’ve let go of things and now I’m a type 2 diabetic and my weight climbs up a few pounds, then I lose a few and it yo-yo’s back and forth. It just never ends, but I also know that I’m the cause of this. I never thought I was an emotional eater, but now I can see it. I have snacks that I stock up on and keep upstairs and don’t watch what I eat much. I need to get things under control because I am not ending up like so many people in my family with all their health problems. I’m right at the opening of the door of bad health with one-foot in. You know that little voice in your head that keeps telling you the right thing to do? Yeah, I’m finally starting to listen to it. I can’t keep going on this way because something bad could happen to me and what would happen to my Mom then? I can’t do this to her.
This week I noticed that tingly feeling in your hands and toes that diabetics get and this has finally got me to stop what I’m doing because it’s killing me slowing and I don’t want that. So things are changing for me and I will be sharing my journey more because I’ve lacked doing that so much. I have to get my butt in gear and get it on the right track. I’m 47 right now and want to enter my 50’s healthier and things under control.
This weekend I’m going to sit down, come up with a plan moving forward and start on a healthier journey. Have a great weekend!