When I'm feeling depressed or anxiety is too much, this is one of the pictures that DH sends to me. He's so sweet. Most of the time. LOL.
I've been struggling with a migraine all week, again. It's trying to tap me out again this morning, I woke at 0300 wide awake, but I think that is because I've been in bed so much. I don't know what kept me in bed more yesterday, my migraine or my depression. My sweet Hope stayed in bed with me most of the day, even though I know she had tons of energy and wanted to play. Instead, she stretched out beside me and pressed her whole length up against me and just stayed beside me. Sometimes I would pet her and we would snuggle, sometimes she would just be there. I love this dog so much. She is so understanding.
I'm hoping today I can get moving and keep the migraine at bay. My 2x daily migraine meds don't seem to be working well. I can feel the migraine now, but it's not too bad, I can manage it at this level. I just hope it does not get worse.
I'm going to start on my routine this morning. I am going to push towards my goals. I'm not giving up, no matter what. My illnesses may slow me down, but I'm not going to stop. Today I'm going to do my usual routine, I have a few random things to do as well, like check and see if the deep freeze still works and things like that, but then I'm going to make smaller goals out of my big goals. For weight loss, that is easy, for strength training it's pretty easy too. For nutrition, I'm working on it. I wanted to stop coffee altogether, but I was reminded of 'everything in moderation, even moderation.' I really like coffee. I don't really want to give it up. I'll try not to drink as much of it, but it can be one of my few guilty pleasures.
I'll probably write another blog later today to put up my goals as I have them laid out. Or I might put it on the family blog... I want DH to set up a personal blog for me, one that will be attached to my online store once I get it up and running (that is a long-term goal, I won't be good enough at sewing for a while to set up the online store) It would be Adventures of a CrouchingFlea... I forget what the subtitle I wanted to have underneath it was, but I have it written down.
I love this quote because it reminds me that everything changes (except God) and that change can be a good thing. It can be and is scary, but in order to move forward, one must change.
Ah, second cup of coffee. Yum. I need to buy some more Black Rifle Coffee. I love that it is owned and run by veterans. Their commercials and videos (found on youtube) are over the top, and I love it. They have a video series called drinking bros that I love to watch too.
So, I'll write more later, after I've gotten my goals more set and have a better idea of what direction I need to go in order to reach said goals. I know I have a lot to do today, and I just hope that this stupid migraine and depression stay at bay long enough for me to work on what needs done. I have an appointment with my psych doc next week, thank goodness because this depression is strangling me. I'm pushing through as best I can, yesterday was really hard, but I think so far today has been pretty good, I'm at least able to look toward the future and think of my goals, yesterday I could not.
Hope you have a great friYAY!!