Deciding on a plan
Friday, July 26, 2019
So many parts of my life are chaotic and outside of my control that it's easy to just roll with whatever is happening and tell myself that "someday" things will get better. My head knows that that isn't true but my emotions like to behave like a spoiled child. I've been telling them to shhhh and let me be.
I've been back on spark for 26 days now and the routine of logging and tracking has really been a benefit to me. Somehow it feels like I have more time now than I did before I was spending time taking care of myself properly.
My plan will be to eat as much produce as I want, only limiting the higher calorie ones to smaller portions. We are blessed to live in a place where produce is cheap (though varieties are limited) so I am making a good choice for my body and my budget.
I feel and eat better when I consume at least one serving of legumes a day. White carbs and sweet foods like dessert tend to make me spiral into EATING ALL THE THINGS
so I will limit them when possible. I still get a piece of dark chocolate after the kids go to bed each night though. Mama survived another day and deserves that treat.
There are no "diet foods" where we live so my plan is close to whole foods based but without any legalism. I am watching my calorie intake as well as all my macros and REALLY keeping an eye on fiber.
I am hopeful that I will continue to log lots of time on my recumbent bike because I can't walk much without being in pain. (Though I MISS walking terribly!)
My weight goal is to be under 200lbs at some point in 2020. The lowest I have been in my adulthood was 212 and that was nearly 18 years ago.