Appreciate what is in front of you
Tuesday, July 23, 2019
Since our move my husband has been struggling with emotions. We made a huge lifestyle change which I am so happy about but for reasons he can't explain my husband is lost. He keeps looking for things to stress about. We removed financial stress from our lives by downsizing and buying a fixer upper, no mortgage no debt. The renovations are in full swing, we put in my dream kitchen, the addition is framed, the front porch was started yesterday, the new roof and siding go on next week.
The beauty of where we live is breath taking. Standing on my half built front porch yesterday I realized I could see river from there, very peak-a-boo but there it is. I can walk down there for my morning coffee, I can run, I can canoe, I can relax.
The last two nights I have literally grabbed his hand drag him out of the chair to come running with me. He refuses to run these days so I said we could just go for a walk in the woods. No aggressive hills, just a walk. He grunted but agreed.
As we walked I stopped and admired the view, he kept going. This morning I emailed him the photos so he could see what he is missing.
Train trestles from the 1800s still standing in the lake.
Looking out at the woods.
Lake at dusk, filled with the sounds of laughing kids and families having fun.
I'm hoping he sees what I see, I hope he stops to listen to the birds. I hope he sees our home and realizes we have what we've always dreamed of doing. I can't force him to see beauty, I can't force him to appreciate life but what I can do is be here for him, hold his hands while he gets through his struggles and hopefully can appreciate what is right in front on him.