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Tuesday, July 23, 2019

I’ve had three whole days off so far. During term-time, I’m either working or being a caregiver 24/7, but I’ve had two half days all to myself now with DH at the clinic. I keep thinking it’s Saturday! I’m going to the pool with a friend on Friday, and today I bought a swimsuit with more coverage than the one I have. DH bought it thirty-five years ago, just after my daughter was born. It was a beautiful design and beautiful quality, but it’s getting a bit the worse for wear! On top of that, I’m pretty hirsute so with the new one, I won’t have to shave above the knees. It’s hardly glamorous, but nor is acres of skin at age 68.

I feel enormously tired. Possible reasons: high humidity, work, having been scared for three weeks - the minor procedure itself? I don’t know. Maybe. I’m working on the walking to rebuild my stamina, and I’ve been doing some stretching.

I mentioned before the lessons I’d learnt while waiting for the final results of the health check. Not earth-shattering stuff. I normally tend to future-think too much - really long-term stuff - the next couple of decades of my life. It seemed ridiculous when I thought it was possible that everything might change in a couple of weeks. I took refuge in the present moment, thinking right now is OK. Now I’ve stopped worrying about being alone, and stopped thinking about finances in retirement. I know I have enough to live modestly but happily. The right now is here to be enjoyed. Yes, I told you. Not earth-shattering stuff!

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  • KSNANA2
    I have swim shorts I wear over the bottom of my swimsuits that make it look like the one you have. I think you will be happy with that one. Very pretty.
    180 days ago
  • KENDRACARROLL
    Cute swim suit.
    Always good to keep it in the now but admittedly hard to do.
    Rest, relax, enjoy!
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    182 days ago
  • JURASSICSUE
    I love that swimsuit. I always wear the ones with the longer legs now and feel much more confident in that style. I find swimming to be quite meditative and relaxing too, so it helps with my horrible habit of over-thinking problems. I think it does drain our energy. Don't they say that the brain uses about a quarter of our energy/calories? Well when I'm in worry mode it must be even more than that! I hope you are able to relax and recuperate.
    182 days ago
  • IMLOCOLINDA
    Love the new swim suit! I buy quite a few because I go to bed he pool every day! Just tried on 3 yesterday since they have gone on clearance sale. None that I liked. emoticon
    Hottest day of the year so far on Tuesday! Hit 100. Had to walk a couple miles of dirt farm roads because my little truck over heated! Got sunburned!

    My little mantra "Be Here Now"! Helps keep worry at bay!
    184 days ago
  • MICKEYH
    I love your new swimsuit!! At our age some covers are welcome!! Stay cool indoor and
    Enjoy the summer
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    185 days ago
  • WATERMELLEN
    Being frightened is exhausting.

    Right here right now -- the present is the only gift we can give ourselves. And calm confidence in the present is always just a thought away. I keep telling myself this and slowly I'm beginning to trust it's true.

    Your new suit is lovely.

    So glad you are finding some time just for you.


    185 days ago
  • JEANKNEE
    The exhaustion sounds like the after-effects to cortisol levels running high in the body due to stress. Take care of yourself and take it easy. Really. It is okay not to push yourself. It seems as if life has had you in push, push, push mode. So, it's okay to take a step back and relax in whatever manner supports that relaxation for you.

    The new suit is cute.

    And, I do resonate with the future-thinking. Yes. I do. I am doing much better in that regard. But, it takes redirection from time to time. It's an unhealthy habit that's developed over the course of a lifetime in which I have felt unsafe. It's been a coping mechanism and an attempt at self protection.

    Enjoy your time with your friend at the pool on Friday. It sounds like a lovely outing.
    185 days ago
  • EISSA7
    Such wise words, Margaret! Live in the now...amen!! So far, I have had to cancel 3 planned vacations with friends in other states due to my husband’s health...March, June, and July. Do plans = future thinking?? I fear that they do. We have a big vaca planned for September....fingers crossed that it doesn’t go the route of the past 3.
    Your new suit is awesome...important to have something that you feel good in! Keep working on that stamina ...and taking care of you! emoticon
    185 days ago
  • BESSHAILE
    Cute bathing suit.

    I hear ya about the "too much thinking" behavior - because I do it all the time too.

    Be sure to drink lots of water as you rebuild your strength and restock your energy stores. And rest. I think the two best medicines are water and sleep.

    And boy - enjoy your vacation!
    185 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    I think the suit is pretty!!!!!!!!!!!

    And love your term, future-thinking. I do too much of that, too! Now, to revel in the moment. Always better.
    185 days ago
  • NELLJONES
    Heat and stress will sap it out of you. emoticon
    185 days ago
  • LOF7203
    I don't think anyone likes swimsuits, or at least trying them on. I hope you are able to get some rest.
    185 days ago
  • NEW-CAZ
    I'm sure you'll look stunning in it Margaret and yes, I reckon the tiredness is a combination of the recent stress and the heat.

    Keep hydrated hun,,,,,,,,,,I returned early from my 2nd walk yesterday because of the heat, I could feel myself getting weaker with each step. So today an early morning walk and a night walk with DH once the sun's gone to bed.

    Happy Tuesday emoticon
    185 days ago
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