Better Pain Management Goals Today
Monday, July 22, 2019
I want to give a shout out to 1Crazydog, Gaby1948 and Jeanknee for your sage words of advice on my last blog. I simply used poor judgement when dealing with my pain levels. I've simply had so much pain for so long that it is kind of hard for me to judge. I am caught in the "I don't want to be seen or thought of as a whiner" syndrome. Ah yes, the people pleaser syndrome raises its head. This is not an appropriate time to worry about what others think about what I do at 1am! As if they care because they were actually sleeping! My mother always told me that if you get too caught up in yourself, God will give you a "leveling" to force you to take better care of yourself. Well I certainly got mine! I do appreciate the advice and support.
Since my pain level was rolling out of control last night, it took what seemed like forever to get it back under control. Consequently, my sleep fell into the poor category. I think I got around 4 hours of fairly decent sleep. This was about three times better than my sleep the previous two nights. My cumulative sleep from the last 3 nights added together equals maybe one average night's sleep. Not good. No sleep equals poor decision making and runaway hunger.
Since I was exhausted but still waiting for "pain control" to kick in, I found myself playing on my iPad, trying to read a novel and finally watching my dear husband sleep. I found myself feeling jealous of his soft snores. I know, this is really desperate, right? If it weren't so pitiful, I think I would have laughed out loud! I mean who does this? Coveting another person's sleep? Yikes! I've reached a new low! Hey, at least I didn't go and get the M&M bag and finish them off. It was hard to take myself seriously when my sleep deprived behavior was boardering on the bizarre.
As 1am rolled into 2am, I decided to do something constructive with my time. I've been searching through some, still unpacked, boxes for my Dr. Judith Beck pink book, which I started last year before we moved. When I couldn't find it, during the first of my 3 sleepless nights, I went on Amazon and ordered another copy of of her pink book and the matching workbook. It arrived Sunday morning. So, as 2am was rolling into 3am this morning, I began to read the introduction to her book and...I promptly fell asleep. See? Reading the book has already helped me! Seriously, I intend to begin reading it today.
I did eat a light breakfast, pain and nausea killed what little appetite I had. And...I put myself on a pain management schedule. Pain is momentarily under control. I also figured out a way to wash my hair in the kitchen sink, while keeping my arm elevated above my heart. It reminded me of something that might have been a skit on the Carol Bernett show with Tim Conway. Perhaps it will appear on YouTube and I will start a new career as a comedian! You just never know!